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| If your coming here and hoping for less rant/ sad stuff you should stop reading now...
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ok so you want to know read my weekly (or is it randomised time) rant.
Todays topic "so called friends" final word, what is one? to me, it is
someone that stand up for their friends and believes in them, not talk
behind their back or do not support them on something they feel
strongly about. I have names on my head but whats the point in naming
them? its rather pointless the ones who have done such and such to me
know who they are.
I feel I have learnt a vauable lesson today, never put your heart out
to something you like or enjoy doing, coz if you do you will end up
destroying what you once thought was "fun" and when you seem to work
towards a goal, and reach that goal, and your at a point where you can
"change" things it is never gonna go the way you want it to, I learnt
this the hard way and now, after 3 months of wasted time, countless
hours of mindless brainstorming, i see the light, if someone has more
power then you, they will get stuff done a different way, and screw
your work, they have no regard to how much effort you have put in at
all.
Trying to stick up for a "friend" because she felt "sad" about
something, cost me.. a very important position in my mind, something
that i enjoyed doing, but life sucks like that i guess, I guess its
time for me to move on, and change scene, if some people dont see me
again its coz you have been mentioned on here in some way, I dont even
expect you to realise how I feel, but its too late for me to even care,
we had our good times our fun times, but now its gonna come to a sad
end, "What I can pick up, I can put down" is something i strongly
believe in and its a saying I go by in my life, therefore, I picked up
asianfanatics, now i am putting it down, all of it, and that includes
this xanga, so therefore this shall be my last entry.
something that started off so... fun ended with so much bullshit,
thanks for the good times too bad for the bad, I said my piece, if i
can quit I am sure you can too, the world is a big place we might meet
again.
MKayZ
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| I feel that I have achieved alot this week, well not really but it
seems as though I have, I have finally sorted out my body clock (YAY
!!!) waking up at 7am each day and sleeping at around 12-1am isnt bad
eh?
and I have also made something in photoshop! yay, so that like 2 outta
the million things i wanted to get done, oh. also I got my application
for a passport (no i do not hold a green card) I just need to re new my
passport! - which I still havent filled in, thats one of my targets for
the following week.
so next week, its gonna be, more photoshop, passport filling and maybe dj abit more.
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| hm... someone such as myself is not used to disapointment, and if i get
disapointed by the people i care for, then well its gets messy, guess
what? things just got very messy.
Hmm... I aint had a smoke for sucha long time, almost 2 weeks, but
right now more then anything I need a smoke, and a drink, but its
3:30am here, shud i go out to get smokes and some alcoholic liquid?
hm... as if i can be bothered to do such a thing.
Dont know what else to say, caio
MKayZ
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| Another day has passed, and well, what have I achieved? lol not much a level 40 hawker in Rose Online and a level 35 Sodier too! lol that is all I have really been doing lately, I feel so lazi there is nothing that I can really talk about but I felt I should update this silly thing once in awhile.
I have decided to try and sort out my sleeping time and maybe even get a job this week, I want to sort out various things, like renew my passport ( Yes I came over here on a bananna boat ^_^ j/k) but yeah, and also need to fix my glasses, I think i stepped on them ^_^ so thats not too good.
Things with my ba xa is going great! I hope to see her very soon. May 13 !!! that only...50 days time :( | | |
| wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee................................................
I aint updated for a long time, been busy with things, lets see what
has happened? I got a job (did i say that already?) wel I got a job,
and i got fired keke now I am just chilling, life seems fun, well it is
fun. being lazy and not doing much, time seems to go by so quick, but
during the time it seems very slow.
I went to a party last week, a good friends birthday, omg, he threw up
on my shoes >_< but its ok, I am sure I ahve done the same to him
on many occassions ^^
Today I went to sing, wooo me sing, keke i sang a few songs, no chinese
though, A song iI remember siniging is "I don;t wanna miss a thing" by
Aerosmith, and I was thinking of a special someone, named... Julie
"i cud stay awake just to hear u breathing..." sucha true line ^^
anyways, all the doubts i had before seem to been cleared up, I am so
happy right now, yet I am so sad, because i cannot be with her right
this minute, hopefully this will change soon.
ok until next time
MKayZ
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